Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in nicola's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
8:51 pm	hello again Alright. I am going to try this again. I do figure that there is no other way to fully keep in touch with all you loveable peeps. So here I am. I live in Orlando now, which is fun. I got a job at a really cool Italian resteraunt, but they wanted me to hostess forever, so i quit. I just couldn't take it. And I got a job at Fridays. Which really kinda sucks, just because it is so corporate. At orientation today, I spent 2 nad a half hours taking tests and filling out paper work. One test was freaking eight pages long and it was an open book test from the server handbook! What a waste of time! I mean, I get the point that we write it down and therefore we remember it easier, but really? It just felt like I was working on that thing for ten years. SUcky. I have also managed to embarass my self by being a wastoid infront of several complete strangers. Which is fine. It just sucks that the only people I have to be wastoid infront of are strangers. It makes the morning after a living hell. I have also met two boys that attempt to creep into my life. One is this boy that I have dubbed, Florida Frankie, because I met him in Florida and his name is Frankie. I should back up just a second and explain a simple fact about Florida : All the boys here are gay. And if they are not actually Gay, they talk Gay, walk Gay, and act Gay. Not that this is a problem for me. All of my best guy friends are gay, and almost all the girls are bi- not i feel like that rascist in the corner that claims that all of his friends are black, but you know what I mean, and only Kyle reads this anyway- I love you sweetie( XOXOXOX)--that was said in a granny voice in my head, just so you know--! But the truth is that I have never in my life felt more like haing someone grab me by the hair, throw me over his back, and drag me to his hut where we will make mad passionate love. Where are the men! Bring out the men! Sensitivity is so out for me. Their accents are not quite southern, but not northern, just blah. They all dress a little tooooooo well. I feel like I am in the stepford Husbands- wouldn't that be a hideous sequal! It's just weird. So I meet Florida Frankie at this bar. Sadly enough, I am ashamed to say that he was basically the last guy I met that night, you know, so I invite him back to the hood to smoke. Plus, He looked pretty cute from the chest up. Nice eyes, I couldn't hear the annoying voice so much in the crowded bar. He had nice hair, but it was kinda too nice. And I couldn't really see his outfit. But when he took off his shirt, I saw the biggest turn off to me---a nipple ring. Now, I know that some people love them and I respect that. but I don't. I don't want to touch it, I don't want to see it. It makes me think of pain. So he spends the night b/c he is " too wasted to drive." We make out a lot, but nothing else happens. Previous to this I had already decided to stop sleeping with boys so readily- it's not worth the morning (or week) after. And it seems like it shouldn't be this way, but it is when those boys try to have a relationship with you that you feel the worst. It is the ultimate mistake that won't go away. I learned that in the Ham. We aren't seeing each other any more. SO, Then I meet this guy Matt. EH works at Fridays, my current place of employment as well. We meet at a keg party, so needless to say-WASTED! But we didn't kiss or anything, he just asked for my number because he wanted me to go to dinner with him th enext night! Hell yeah Hibachi! I didn't want to go the next day because I was really hung over and didn't think that I could stand trying to be cute and likable. Plus the thought of Japanese made my stomach turn. But we agree to chill that night-maybe. That was the night of Wilma. ANd we had another Hurricane party. Nic and I readily went to this small party because we didn't want to be on the third floor of an apartment building if a tornado came. It was a good time though. There are some cool people that work there. So anyway, I end u p getting shitty and Matt offers to follow me home so that I don't get a ticket. (Nic had decided to stay a while and drink some more- which was fine.) But I liked this idea of Matt followingme home so that I did not get arrested. But I also knew that I could not ask him to drive all the way back to Apopka- about twenty minutes- in tropical force winds and downpouring rain. I agreed anyway. And he spent the night. Not a damn thing happened. No kissing. A little cuddling. ANd it is not that I didn't want him there, I just really don't want to do that anymore. Whatever happened to dating someone? Coming and picking someone up, taking them out and returning them to their door? Why does dating equal move in with? I want somem space. Because Matt is pretty cute and really nice, but he tries too hard. AND he has that whole florida thing about him. Plus I can't decide if he reminds me of Ward- teh crazy waiter at JIm N Nicks? Anyway, now he is all up my butt. I had to go in for orientation today at ten in teh mornng. He came to TGI Fridays at that same time with nothing to do, but sit with me. Luckily the girl that worked the bar was running late, so he had to do her opening duties. So, we didn't sit there forever. But then, he leaves when I do and tries to get meto go over to his house. I tell him that I am going for a run, and he says that he will buy a pair of shorts at the NIKE outlet to go running with me! WHAT! For real? It's just impossibly suffocating. Anyway- sorry to rant, this is a long ass Live Journal. I will write more in a little while. Current Mood: kinda Current Music: the hum of a computer and the distant tv (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
9:26 pm	what a bummer i am well, i realize that my last post was quite a bummer, please forgive me. I have a tendency to get melancholy with the beer. i love you all and i will see you soon. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 6th, 2005
1:30 am	well, my life is one big shitty mess, but atleast I am getting drunk in Tuscaloosa..... I have come to the realization lately, that my life is kinda one big shitty mess. I don't believe that I am treating people right. I hate to work, I hate to SERVE people. And why do they automatically lower than them. But, my manager said it best when speaking of these office workers that come in for the lunch specials in a big ass hurry and think that you must be below them because we wait on them and do not answer a phone in a doctor's office, or clean plaque off of teeth, or sell cars- all of which make me want to gag. He said, " hah. I'll be naked in my living room smoking a bowl when you are returning to work, AND i'll make just as much." all of which is true ( minus the nakey part - as I live with my parents- and the smoking a bowl naked- for the aforementioned reasons, and [worst of all] definitely not making more money than them.) Atleast not consistently, that is for sure. Not to mention my sordid, turned dirty, non existen "love" life. Atleast not the love, i've got the life. It blows. Plus, I feel everyone in Savannah slowly slipping away from my mind. It sucks. Sometimes, I feel like I don't know them any more and I get these flashes of when that was my life- those people, that city, that school- and i miss it. It is really odd because if you had asked me if I would miss Savannah, I would have laughed in your face. That department put me through more hell than I have ever been through in my life. I broke down at that school more times than I ever have- atleast in public. And it made me a better person. I hope it made me a better actor- but who can judge themselves. But regardless, it made me good friends that I will never see again. for the first time I miss them, I miss my life there, and I miss my school. It's odd. It's weird to realize very slowly that you thought of a place as home. Will told me this would happen and I didn't believe him. but it is true! Sad, but true. But then at the same time, I miss SCAD at a different time, with different people, and I am glad taht I got out when I did. Nicola (Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
2:49 am	yoyoyoyoyoy so, i got bored and played on th internet. i just don't see the point completely in this thing as i see you all and talk to you all. anyway, tryng too get into it. nicola Current Mood: blank Current Music: adult swim (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 30th, 2001
1:41 am	nothing going on nothing going on in my life, but i am happy, adn it is not drug induced!!!!:). like i am drug induced that much.pshaw! anyhoo, sometimes you just get that feeling and it is like simon and garfunkel are on your shoulder, "life i love you all is groovy!!" i have been feeling that way a lot lately. much love to all and check you later! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: my life (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
1:15 am	woooooh, it is just one of those days...... i know that karma is catching up with me. I was mean to a couple of my friends and now I have a shitty luck. what a bitch!! oh well, i mean today I managed to tump a whole tray of drinks onto a table practicly one at a time. i saw them going over and it was like in a movie when you just go in slow motion. i couldn't catch them. pam is being a bitch. our lunch closer got fired today adn geuss who ended up taking her shift. it sucked. anywho, shit just keeps happening. I am supposed to go to tuscaloosa tomorrow but don't know if I am. i don't know about anything and I have to go in a minute because i am working a lovely double tomorrow. yeah. i was sooo excited this weekend because one of my best friends from middle school who moved to st. louis our senior year ( which is why i am interseted in talking to you about st. louis kyle and theresa :)) came down and all we did was stay up late all weekend adn reminisce adn get drunk, adn i got sick on sushi. it was my first time to try it, it sucked. oh well, life is good. and in the immortal words of simon and garfunkel, "life i love you, all is groovy!" i am going to have ciggerette now :). (Comment on this)
Monday, June 25th, 2001
2:22 am	HELLO EVERYONE okay, so I just signed on and am friends with kyle and theresa, and i wonder why they are going to st. louis. i have friend in st. louis that I would love to go see :). okay, I hope that I am doing this right. It is really early monday morning and I have to go to bed soon because I have to get up to work the job from hell tomorrow. oh well, i had a very interesting weekend and I will probably post it later when I have more time, but I wanted to figure out how to do this and such so, check you later!!!! (Comment on this)